"Beri aku sepuluh pemuda, maka akan kuguncang dunia." - Ir. Soekarno, presiden pertama Indonesia.

want to know me more? Here, I give you my 100 truths

(Repost from macxo.blogspot.coml)

001. Real name → Muthiah
002. Like it? → not really, too short
003. Nickname(s)→ Muthe, Mutia, Tia
004. Status → in a relationship
005. Zodiac sign → Virgo
006. Male or female → female
007. Elementary→ Muhammadiyah
008. Middle School → SMP 216 Jakarta Pusat
009. High School → SMA 68 Jakarta Pusat
010. Hair color → Violet? Brown? Dark blonde? all mixed together
011. Long or short → medium
012. Eye color → black
013. Weight → 50

014. Height → 165
015. Righty or lefty → righty
016. Loud or Quiet → depends
017. Sweats or Jeans → Sweats
018. Phone or Camera → Phone with camera
019. Health freak → Yessss
020. Piercings? → Ears
021. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
022. Eat or Drink → Drink
023. Purse or Backpack → Purse
024. Tattoos → No, but will have one
025. Do You Like Yourself? → A lot
026. Current worry? → Many things. weight?

THIS OR THAT:
027. Orange or Apple Juice? → Apple Juice
028. Night or Day? → Night
029. Sun or Moon? → Moon
030. TV or Internet? → Internet

031. PlayStation or XBox? → Neither
032. Kiss or Hug? → Both!!
033. Iguana or Turtle? → Neither. I hate animals
034. Spider or Bee? → Spider
035. Fall or Spring? → Spring
036. Limewire or iTunes? → err
037. Soccer or Baseball? → Soccer

FIRSTS:
038. First surgery → 9 years ago, amandel
039. First piercing → Both ears 
040. First best friend → Gita
041. First Sport? → forgot
042. First award → murid TK teladan ;)
043. First crush → my senior in elementary school (4th grade)
044. First pet → Doraemon, a cat
045. First big vacation → Manado
046. First big birthday → 5th birthday

CURRENTLY:
047. Eating → nope
048. Drinking → nope
049. I'm about to → tweeting
050. Listening to → none
051. Singing? → nope
052. Typing? → of course
053. Waiting for → someone to come over

YOUR FUTURE:
054. Want kids? → Yes, two
055. When? → soon after married
056. Want to get married? → Yes
057. When? → 23? 25?
058. Where Do You Want To Live? → Japan
059. Careers in mind → Diplomat in UN
060. What Did You Want To Be When You Were Little? → Mangaka, Architect
061. Mellow Future Or Wild? → Wild
062. Something You Would Never Try? → Eat bizzare foods

WHICH IS BETTER WITH BOY?
063. Lips or eyes → Eyes
064. Shorter or taller? → Taller
065. Romantic or spontaneous → Both
066. Nice stomach or nice arms → uuu both
067. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
068. Hook-up or relationship → Both?
069. Trouble maker or hesitant → Trouble maker
070. Hugging or Kissing? → BOTH 
071. Tan Skinned or Light? → Tan skinned
072. Dark or Light Hair? → Dark
073. Muscular or Normal? → Muscular

HAVE YOU EVER:
074. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes
075. Ran away from home → Never
076. Held a gun/knife for self defense?→ Always, a knife
077. Killed somebody → No
078. Broken someone's heart → Yes?
079. Been arrested → No
080. Cried when someone died → Yes, even in a movie
081. Kissed A Stranger? → No
082. Climbed Up A Tree? → Yes, but not too high
083. Liked A Friend As More Than A Friend? → Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
084. Yourself → Yes, fully
085. Miracles → Yes

086. Love at first sight → Yes
087. Heaven → Yes
088. Santa Claus → No, why would I?
089. Kiss on the first date → Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
090. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes
091. Do You Like Someone? → Yes
092. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Kind of
093. Do you believe in God → Yes

LASTS
094. Recieved/Sent Text Message → Arme
095. Received Call → Bimo Ario
096. Call Made? → Ita
097. Wall On Facebook? → Vina
098. Missed Call? → Dara
099. Person You Hung out With? → Vani
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 

Abandoned Passion

Lately, I realize something. Aku bukan termasuk orang yang fokus. Hidup selama 19 tahun bukan hal remeh yang bisa aku buang sia-sia gitu aja. I'm living to the fullest.

Aku bukan orang yang bisa diam aja ngeliat segala hal menarik seliweran di sekitarku. Aku gampang banget tertarik sama segala hal, apapun. Aku suka main futsal, lagi nyoba belajar nari, pengen ikut ini-itu. But there's one thing I really love(d) to do.

Aku suka designing. I was born as a baby painter and grew up like one. Dinding rumah lamaku dulu penuh banget sama coretan anak kecil cina yang baru kenal krayon. Mulai dari garis, trus aku belajar nulis huruf, gambar beruang, semuanya aku lakukan di dinding. Kesukaan ini berlanjut sampai aku SD dan SMP, jaman marak-maraknya aku ikut (dan menang) lomba gambar. Jadi waktu itu ada lomba gambar dadakan yang ternyata diadakan sama Toyota. Aku ikutan dan jeng jeeeeng, mendadak bisa jadi satu-satunya pemenang dari Indonesia yang dikirim ke Jepang. Padahal awalnya aku kira lombanya kacangan dan paling pemenangnya dapat paket krayon baru. That day, I realize dreams could bring you anywhere you desire.

Shibuya 109 canvas painting done when I was in junior high. 

Tapi tau nggak sih, for me those glorious days were over. Mungkin karena kesibukan kuliah atau kelemotan laptop dan segala macem hal lain, aku sekarang udah setengah hati kalo gambar dan designing. Kadang-kadang sekarang masih suka ada job gratis bikin poster atau logo, tapi rasanya udah beda,. Padahal waktu kecil cita-citaku berubah terus mulai dari mangaka, fashion designer dan arsitek. Sekarang aku di HI, di tempat yang ga berhubungan sama sekali dengan passion aku.

Jadi inget, nyokap pernah bilang "Kalo kuliah ambil jurusan yang serius, jangan design-design kayak gitu." Jarang-jarang aku nurut sama dia, but here I am now. Kuliah di Jogja, mengejar passion baru dan struggle sama hal yang juga sama sekali baru.

Whatever you call it: talent, passion atau apapun; tapi menurut aku dia pasti sedih kalo dilupakan. Suatu hari nanti, aku pasti balik lagi kok. Once I love something, I won't stop (tergantung sih hehe). Mungkin nanti kalo semesterannya udah lowong aku bisa gambar-gambar lagi, atau apalah bikin 'gebrakan' lain. Tunggu aja, siapa yang tau apa yang terjadi nanti kan?

First post!

Finally! I had huge difficulties to start blogging. Well, I simply can't understand how it works. Now I'm out testing some tricks and voila. my first blog established. Stay tuned ;)