It's been a while since I haven't really lived life to the fullest. I have no idea how to settle down and sit back, relax while seeing things happen around. I live like a robot, self-driven machine. Or society victim, or anything you name it. I don't know what do I seek, what I want. Well, no one actually knows and it goes on. Is it too much if I ask for perfection?
I'm a virgo, never blame me for that.
Let's say, when I'm in love or simply deciding to choose goods, I'd think and consider lots of other things. Which sometimes won't make it better.

A question arised:
How am I going to feel that again? 
Feel alive, let loose, have fun?


As we became older, those three things are hard and harder to get without booze.